Tuesday's the day- weightloss

I guess I'm stickn to the old routine over here. Well anyway. I feel great today. I do not feel over weight, I also don't feel skinny I kind of just feel right. And best part I don't feel all bloated and crap! Which is awesome! I am still at 145, not that it bothers me to be at this point but I still want to be 10 lbs less. I can get there. I am taking my time. I am controlling my eating again. Yesterday I did fine but I had 2 cupcakes. One was my breakfast, and one was my snack. Although the rest of the day I ate a whole lot less. I prob averaged 1700-1800 cal. I do wish I didn't have the cupcakes though I would be down at least 500cal. But hey they were football cupcake with butter cream frosting... I caved... and it was sooooo goood!

This week I should be getting my protein shake powder! I am super excited! Why cause when I am really hungry and "need" to eat I will have a protein shake instead! Now I have done Herbalife before, so I know how the shakes smell and taste... and Let me tell you I got to smell the Vanilla Shake Powder on Saturday and I was in heaven! I forgot how damn good it is! I love them! I do really like the Arbonne products though. They have the option to add fiber into your shakes. Meanwhile Herbalife adds protein instead. Both help you feel full and satisfied but the extra fiber will keep you system clean if you know what I mean!

Anyway. I am looking forward to start on a regiment. A more solid plan. I have been dabbling in the workout field again... I am doing good. Its just slow. I am very scared to hurt my shoulder again. I know I have to get over that fear and just go with it, but... I'm sick of being injured!

ALSO.. During my GAG challenged I was determined not only to lose weight and clean out my insides but also to take care of my outsides. Well, we all know I went more green in many aspects. I tried to take some time just to take care of me, well I realized something. Along with my new years resolution I am not only going to slow down and live life more I am also in this for the long haul! I am taking the time and enjoying pampering by body. I feel this business came to me at the right time in my life. It came to me to say WAKE UP! look around, enjoy whats around you! Enjoy yourself! None the less this year is about living!

Hell with such a rough start to this year I am surprised I can still say that! But it is! I am committed to making and striving for more!

Its a new month and a time to restart the beginning of the year!( man am I corny!)  I am back on the positive horse and enjoying everything around me!

Bon Jovi and why he is the man of my dreams!

"Hey man I'm alive. I'm taken each day a night at a time. I'm feeln' like a Monday but someday I'll be Saturday night.... "

Monday is always about the hustle and bustle of working and getting back to the grind of schedule and responsibilities. Well, Yes I feel very much like Monday at this point. Where I am working hard now to enjoy my Saturdays. I want to enjoy my life and how I live it. I know that every day there is a struggle to keep on going. To keep pushing past a bad mood and to keep my hopes up. Well after reading "The Speed Trap" I have to say that I will do everything that has to get done and just do it. I have a new business and a very strange business philosophy, "Just do, Don't think".

Why Just do? Well easy, no stress. I do not want to stress about my responsibilities that are to be done. I just need to get them done. I met with a my business district manager today, got what I needed and went about my day. Did some learnings and went about my day. I will sit down and read the books she gave me later but I am thoroughly enjoying this just doing without thinking part. I do not feel stressed about what I am doing. And being stress free is the number one way to pick your head up and just enjoy life!

Of course its going to be hard to run a business around family and a 30 hour job. But I plan on sticking to the plan my DM has set up for me. Just do it and it will all fall into place. She is confident enough that it will so I am confident enough that it will too!

Hubby doesn't think the way I think, But it has taken me years to get here and this is not the first health and wellness company that I am a part of sooo, I already know what I am doing. Like I used to work for CVS, well if I went to Walgreens wouldn't it essentially be the same job? So I look at it like this. I am going to do this and I am going to be successful. I didn't stop last time because I couldn't do it. hell I was the best. But School made me choose between a business or going to school. The overhead was too much. Well I will not be having much overhead with this business. I plan to take money in before money goes out and I plan on keeping a profit!

Business is never easy. Yet, neither is life. And I love life so I love a challenge! BRING IT ON! (not the movie)

I am on overdrive a this point!

So the creative process for my book is doing quite well. I have a lot of jump off points and sooo many ideas just all over the place... but I started a new business! Yes, I did it I went for it! The company is called Arbonne! I am super excited I want to share with everyone how great this company really is! I started yesterday and should have all of my information soon enough. I really want to share with everyone my website. It is a wonderful company with wonderful products. Tilly... Im gonna drop you off some product tomorrow, so you can try it. Let me know when you get home... (I love my neighbor!)  I am also going to have some parties for the products in 2 weeks! Be there or be square! I have a feeling that for all my fellow bloggers I will be doing a vlog to showcase everything to you guys so you all don't feel left out. I can't wait to share more with you guys!

On other fronts, My tax return came and half went. It feels so great to pay things off! Never have to worry about paying again next month either! Just freedom! But anyway... I had a really rough week this past week. We had a squirrel invasion! and hubby is officially called the squirrel murderer! hehehe, But I got him good a few times myself! goin' through my daughter's toys and wreck'n our basement.. he deserved what he got! I'm not into animal cruelty or anything but the bastard ruined my week! I had to take a day off to clean up after the mess that was made and it completely threw me into a loop that I still haven't managed to break free from.

I am taking this whole slowing life down seriously. I really want a better life and a more enjoyable life too! I very much enjoyed yesterday and even though I just set myself up on a fast passed business track I do have to say I am trying to remain very calm about the whole situation. I have a very high goal to meet this month for my new Arbonne business, I am taking the bull by the horns on this and running with it! I am doing this to better our future. I have goals I want to meet and EXCEED!

ok I am off! I have tons of work to get done. Already talked to my mom, have loads more to get done! lata people! Have a wonderful superbowl sunday!

Writing

I started writing last night. I have two pages down and a more detailed outline of things I need to add into the book. I am thoroughly enjoying the writing process. All I have in my head is me and my best friend at this point. And just our ways and my memories are flooding my head at the moment. I love to reminisce on us.Our friendship is deep, our bond is strong and I want this book to portray that. I want it to be a gift to her more than anything. I just got done telling her more in detail about the book, she is psyched! about it. I am having her pick out the names for me... it was the only part I wasn't about to pull out of a hat. I called her character the sassy bitch that brings love and humor... she loves it!

As for names I got loads of help: http://www.halfdan.is/vestur/nofn.htm

I am very happy with my progress! I can't wait to share with you guys!

very little today

I am in a functioning mood not a writing mood. I did just scan in my essay about control... I soo want to type it up for you all to read it. Anyway there are only two things I have to say:

I am 144.5 today
my nails are pink- shoot me!

which means if I plateau again I will be really pissed and if I don't put some black on top of my pink nails soon I might go crazy...

c ya lata people!

Ah, tax season is upon us

Lets see from a show of hands how many people already filed their taxes... I DID I DID! yup, im such a nerd! anyway, Its reassuring to know that we will have money soon! Than all of it will go to pay off everything that we owe and than we will be back to nada.. how nice is that! yea right..

anyway, this morning I am still 145.5, I figured you were all dyn to know.... haha!

I do have to say that the TV was a conscious decision for both of us cause it would only cost us 30buck a month but still, not what I wanted to do... anyway, Christine you are right its spoiled husband syndrome! But doing my taxes made me feel much better! Thank god! so, I am going to go plan what to pay off... Lata people!

Being normal has a price!

So Saturday night I had the grace of god to be able to go out with my friends to the big NYC and have a night of so many laughs I still have a headache! Anyway.. with the cat out the mice do play. I got a txt message from hubby that he bought a new TV, at first I was skeptical but than I felt that he actually would. Anyway turns out he didn't buy the TV while I was out but he did buy the TV yesterday on Sunday... So we officially have a new 46" Sony Bravia in out living room... Did we need it NO, but this is what I get for going out. Hubby's friends say I should go out more often cause than he would have more stuff.. uhh yea, his broke ass already has everything humanly possible. And I was concerned about spending too much when  I went out that night... a night actually in the city cost me a car wash for 15bucks, gas 20bucks, bottle of jack for my friends b-day present 30bucks, dinner 36bucks, Oh! and you cant forget .....a new TV that will cost me 30 bucks for the next 36 months....

The face my hubby has had since he got the TV priceless... My face... devastated! Go figure!

Anyway, Since there is nothing I can do about that... I want to say that I had way too much fun on Saturday night to care! I got to spend time with some of my closest friends from highschool and my baby cuz! I haven't seen him in forever and we had the best time ever! Lets put it this way the bar/grill that we went to put us a group of 20 in the basement by ourselves away from the normal people! We got to be as loud and rowdy as we wanted to be! I couldn't drink myself but it didn't matter. The shenanigans that we pulled were more epic because we were sober! Apparently I got abused and raped that night from love taps and a hug! oh yea, it was a long night of way too many wrong comments!

So how did I fair, very well. I have to say that I enjoyed my night, and besides the TV purchase the next day was calm and relaxing... did I do laundry? no, did I work out? no, Did I even make dinner? NO! I did make lunch though.. but anyway. I had a pretty good food weekend, I am currently 145.5, so I am slowly going back down to where I should be.

I also have been having calm days, except for my daughter going crazy! yesterday we were at taget cause hubby broke the garbage can (seriously), so we got the baby her vday presents, and presents for her cuz's and let me tell you my daughter is a lil pisser! every god damn thing she saw she wanted! EVERYTHING, I have no idea why. but she is getting really bad with that. She has plenty of stuff! She doesn't play with her toys instead she trashes all of our DVDs and anything electronic. But whatever, she is for the most part still a very good little girl.

I have been working very hard on this positive thinking and calm aspect of life. I understand but in practice sometimes life just gets the best of you...sooo, practice makes perfect! I will keep at it. I have all year to instill good thinking and positive calm aspects of my life while still being productive. I want to live life not run through it. I am doing quite well I think for the first month. I hope everyone else is also having a productive month so far on their new years

And thank you everyone for your love and support!