Saturday, October 31, 2009


We found frankie! he is currently in the hospital. he is ok, He wanted to go, he is on medication now and is doing better. I will be going to see him tomorrow. My friend puts it like this, he isnt gonna get better unless he wants to, kind of like smoking you won't quit till you want to... So he wants the help and he is already seeming a little better. Thank you again to everyone.

now I hope you all have a happy and safe halloween...

PS my cake came out super yummy but its a complete mess... the cake itself was too crumly and fell apart all over the place... so no pics, sorry...

Friday, October 30, 2009

Thank you

Thank you everyone for being so thoughtful at a time that is so hard. I know that Frankie is somewhere and eventually we will find him with hopes that he is well. Yet it makes me reflect on what I have and how grateful I am. I know that sometimes I get very frustrated with hubby but I am happy to say that I have a loving and supportive hubby that is a productive part of our family. No matter how many times I might complain about his inability to help out, he is of sane mind to help me when and if I ask for it. He is there enough to stand by my side through thick and thin.. Not to mention that no matter how many problems I have with his mother I have to remember that she is not a psycho nut job and is a good loving person. Frankie's Girlfriend is a wonderful woman. She is loving and a great mommy. And life isn't easy when you don't have the other person in your relationship helping you to move forward in life.

So this whole situation has been a complete downer for me. Its making me completely freak out. Now its not that I'm stress eating or anything, but I just feel like crap about this. I am trying to keep myself up and happy, but its really hard. Now for me that's crazy, I can't be happy right now. Its like a once in a lifetime thing. I guess the fact that we can't do anything makes it worse too. I am going to try and smile and send my buddy good vibes to come home.

So on with life I go.
Now I said I wasn't gonna bake this weekend but the fact that I had a 45% off coupon for Micheal's got the best of me! I bought the starter kit! I also bought coloring for the icing and all the supplies I am going to make a yummy chocolate cake from scratch with Orange Frosting. Now I don't think I have enough to decorate the top of the cake but I know I have enough to ice the cake. So for my first experiment it will be nice and simple! I know I'm a dork but who cares! I hope I get the time with the munchkin to get it all done today. I hope she sleeps and lets me play in the kitchen!

Now as for the past few days I have been slacking with posts and what not, but since wednesday I have been hidding something. I had 9 pieces of candy- 5 milky ways, 2 twix, a kitkat, and a lil pack of sour patch kids. I was sooo sick! I haven't had that much candy for over 6 months! And the weirdest thing is two Halloweens ago I think I would have eaten 3 times that much without a problem. Last Halloween I don't even remember it was such a blur! All I know was the princess was a monkey with a banana!poor thing she wasn't even a month old and look at me torturing her! and holy cow, All I know is I couldn't stop laughing when I did this! it was just wayyyyy wayyyy tooo funny! oh not to mention underneath that she is wearing a white shirt that says "I love my Mummy!" with white pants... get it she was a mummy too! ahahahaha... ok that sure brought a big ass smile to my face! Uh I really needed that! PS: she is wearing Halloween socks in the picture, they have lil spiderwebs on them! (I love target dollar section! I got the shirt and 3 Halloween socks for 4 bucks!)

I am very excited for tomorrow. Its almost the baby's first Halloween. We are going trick or treating and I am super excited for it! Candy for me(and hubby), and the baby gets to go out and have FUN! I'm not wearing a costume, I know lame right? Well I haven't worn one since middle school. I was always a black cat though. Actually I am wearing all black right now. I have no idea what to wear tomorrow. I just want to look cute for Halloween, not a costume. Any ideas? Ok well I am going to get some work done. AKA take care of my other 2 blogs... Talk to you later!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

update on Frankie

We have not found him yet. we checked his mother's house, not there. Hopitals were checked, no word yet. My friend works for the government, he will be checking frankie's phone records and see if he signed up for the airfoce which is something frankie mentioned a few months ago. We have no idea where he might be. It might be that his mom has him hidding in the basement or some crazy shit like that. As for the police, Frankie has some run in's with the cops in his youth so the cops are the last people we want to talk to. We pretty much have to wait till Monday to check the phone records. We will go from there and I will update you if anything happens.
As for where he may be, he could be anywhere. He says he has money, from where we have no idea. But he has a car and with gas he can go anywhere. So if anyone knows or sees anything let me know please. Thank you

Bad news pending

ok, Bad news pending. my friend has up and disappeared. Now he is well capable of taking care of himself that's not the problem. We are just really worried about him. He isn't in the right state of mind and I am going to roam around the streets of our home town to go look for him. This is very disheartening for me. I grew up with him, He is one of my brother's best friends so he is like a big brother. He has a 3 year old boy that needs a father. Please pray for him. I know that its crazy but here is his pic if you see he Please let me know if you see him

His name is Frankie, he really is a great guy. If you see him there will be nothing wrong with him and he is completely harmless, just way mentally lost at this point. I would really appreciate if anyone sees him, We are on long Island but it could be NJ, Staten Island, NYC and its 5 boroughs, CT, PA, or any other close by location.

I have made up my mind!

Now you all know I have been after the infamous Wii Fit for MONTHS! Well I have to say that after the past two days I have decided that my obsession with the Wii Fit is done! Why? Well for the past two days I have been working out with .. Yup you heard me right! I have been working out for 2 days, I have enjoyed it very much. And besides the fact the I am not super soar and dying over here I can continue working out without a laps! So the reason I wanted Wii Fit was to have an instructional how to of what to do kind of workout. (if that just made any sense?) So now that I have FREE workout videos that are easy to pick and choose different types of workouts, I am happy to say that I am saving my 100bucks and spending it on baking goods!

what irony! So I have discussed and debated over taking baking classes at Micheal's. Well This weekend I found out that classes are 27bucks plus supplies... uhh can we say 50+ a pop! No thank you, so I am going to get some supplies with my 45% off coupon and just go online and use some tutorial videos! Ah the great vastness of the internet! I love it! First off I am trying not to bake till Halloween is over, but I fear that this is inevitable! I am itching to do something! So since I am not making dinner tonight (hubby coming home late) I will be baking AFTER I work out. Now originally I had planned since I am going to be out all day I will not work out, BUT I will get a half hour or more workout in! I have from 230-730 to go out and do everything I got to do! The only responsibility I have today is to call in dinner from the Chinese food place.... EASY!

So I plan on making Chocolate cake from scratch and butter cream frosting from scratch. Now I think I will make the frosting today and make the cake tomorrow. This way I can get a grip on what I'm venturing into and not go over board. Also the two recipes that I have are super easy.

Chocolate cake:


  • 2 cups (12 oz.) semi-sweet chocolate chips divided
  • 3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) butter or margarine
  • 1 1/2 cups granulated sugar
  • 3 eggs
  • 2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
  • 2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1 1/2 cups water
Now seeing how I have everything except chocolate chips and eggs, it seems easy enough right?

as for the butter cream frosting goes:

which means all I need is powdered sugar. I can't wait to get started! Home made cake from scratch not a box!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hot Dog!

heehee, Hot dog hot dog hot diggity dog! So lets see how many of you know where thats from?

anyway, on the front of moving out. I found a really nice apt here in town for 1,000... Sux that its soo much, and I don't know if its still available but... its always worth a shot to find out! I want to see if they could price it at 900 to include everything... It's such a long shot but worth it! The way it looks like rent is going around here no one is grabing so maybe a lower price with the intent for an income will work?

But that on the back burner, I'm not moving just yet. (although my heart races at the idea, or maybe thats just my workout that I just did, Yes you heard me right I just worked out YAHOO! for 45 min too! but not the point) Me and hubby last night put a budget together to save $5000 by June to move out! Yup you heard me right, stinker pooh daddy pants... Ah shucks! I love him! He is really on board with all of this! I am soo happy. We want to enjoy our Xmas to the fullest than its major savings time!

I can't belive how happy I am right now! Seriously honestly, I wanted to move out by the end of the year/or get my finances straight that we could start looking come the first of the month. Well we could start looking and comit any time after January(which means I met my goal). But we want to save a lil more pay down our credit card debt and have money for stuff like a couch, tv stand, plates, and a kitchen table (we have everything else). I went even as far as to track down all MY stuff that is in the kitchen, so when moving comes its nice and easy and I have a mental itinerary of all my things and where they are. I have pots and pans, cooking utensiles silverwear, and the works but when I moved in I got rid of my plates and glasses. So I have everything except plates and glasses. I got like 3 pie plates though... anyone need one? hehe! I am in such a good mood! oh and to top off the savings, we are at a point where we have a constant amount of cash in our bank account! Now thats all fine and dandy. I'm still making an effort to get food stamps cause without them the whole moving out thing won't work!

So that is my excitment so much so that I had a full 45 min full body workout today, streignth training/cardio/pilates workout! Oh I already am feeling it! I am going to be super soar!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Weight loss at its finest

I have been "on break" but it is back to work over here!

I will be keeping track of weekly things and will log them as such once a week: Since this week incorporates more than one week its a doozie!
Here goes!

T[X] W[x] R[] F[x] S[] S[] M[x]
T[110 CAL] W[145 CAL] R[] F[] S[bowling?] S[] M[]
10/20: It felt good to work out again!
10/21: workn out with baby in toe is not that easy!
T[] W[] R[] F[X] S[X] S[X] M[X]
fri/sat/sun/mon, cause I was on my feet walking around with munchkin all day!
Under 1300 cal:
T[1725] W[?] R[?] F[?] S[2-bday party] S[ate out :( ] M[? 1400 ?]
Water 10glasses or more:
T[9] W[10] R[9] F[8] S[7] S[6] M[10]

PS: R= Thursday (wow that makes me feel really antiquated. I don't know anyone who uses that. R actually stands for review, which way back when in school Friday was test day Thursday was review day. I think that comes out of the mid 1900s but I'm not even that old... I've been using it ever since middle school...OUCH)


So today's weigh in is at 144!

Now I know this is no loss, yet, for me this is success! I have not "dieted" aka restricted my cal for the past few days at all! I feel bloated like a cow from eating out on Sunday. I feel good about where I am! I wish I could have done more sit ups, but my lil tummy is in pain. Sooo sit ups are going to wait till my tummy feels better. I have 9 more lbs to lose to get to my goal. Its kind of scary to even think about it. I have never been able to maintain my weight in the 145 range. I used to be able to maintain at 150-155, but this is 10lbs less! Kind of cool to think about. I am on a path to lose the last 9lbs. I know that I have it in me to keep pushing. Everyone tells me I look great. Its a nice feeling to have people acknowledge my hard work but, its going to be even better when I lose the last bit of weight.

Now this coming week:
I want to make every effort to work out every day! Not only that, no candy! (except for Sat.) We bought Halloween candy on Sunday and I have been picking at it. I have had all of 7 pieces in 2 days. I know that's not a lot but I shouldn't be having any of it! In the effort to lose weight, I will be using the EA active every day this week. As for sit-ups, I will be starting as soon as my tummy feels better. I am hoping that that will be tonight. Sunshine Momma, gave me some great pointers on sit-ups and how they help. Making the effort to do the sit-ups and work out I think will dramatically help me, if not to lose weight to lose inches.

Now, for water consumption. I bought myself a water bottle to take to work with me. So while I'm at work I get about 24oz from the water bottle and another 12 from my tea. I also have 12 oz before I leave in the morning. And as long as I have a glass when I get home, 1 before I start cooking dinner, 1 before I eat, 1 after dinner and 1 before bed I have a total of 13.5 8oz glasses of water/OR 108 oz of water a day! This is soo crucial to keeping my Cal count down.

As for my body. I have to be super careful. I need to stretch out more often. I need to keep limber and not give up on the caring part of my body. Working out is great but for me its a stress on my body that hurts. I need to make sure to stretch and stay focused that I do not hurt myself more than I already am. Starting this week, I am going to be incorporating meditation. I have not figured out how and when but I will find the time. The inner strength I need to keep going is the only way I will be able to focus on losing the weight and without losing sight of what is really important, my health.

Well off to accomplish my tasks of the day! I hope everyone have a wonderful and progressive weigh in day!

Monday, October 26, 2009

"Let me help you eat that"

So as you may all know, I'm on a tight budget when it comes to money. Especially in the food department. So much so that I have applied for food stamps. So anyway, I budget out how much food me and hubby will eat, and what I will make for the munchkin. I can keep our grocery bill down to under $100 a week. That being said last week, I was able to spend only $30. Which was just fresh foods and bread. They had a great sale on the bread that I eat for breakfast. Peperage Farm Cinnamon Raisin Bread. I'm not a bread person but I need my filling of carbs in the morning to keep me till 2:30 when I get home from work. Mainly my breakfast consists of a slice of toast and a half cup of yogurt.

So I found the bread on sale for 2/3! WOW, usually a loaf is $3.99. So I grabbed 2 loafs and called it a day. I figured it would last me 3 weeks. that's $8.00 that I don't have to spend! Yet I bought the two loafs of bread on Wednesday. Now at 1 or even 2 slices a day there should be 1 whole loaf and a half left over right? well, I go into the kitchen this morning and smell Cinnamon raisin. I say yummy! Little did my nose care that my eyes saw that there was a whole loaf eatten already! Now back track...

My mother -in - law is eatting my bread. mind you we are on a tight budget me and hubby. And by all hell my mother - in -law doesn't help with anything if anything she hurts! So a few weeks ago, I was eating breakfast and my mother-in-law comes in. She sees me eating my yogurt and 1 slice of toast. She goes to me "let me help you eat that", Takes my loaf of bread and takes 4 slices. Rambling on how I don't eat enough, mostly about me on a diet but that she is fat and she doesn't care and is still going to eat her 4 slices of MY BREAD.

Now for the past few days, I think my mother-in-law has gotten to my bread. Normally if you were anyone considerate I would love to share with you. But, when you take advantage and abuse a good thing I get mad. I had toast maybe 2 times in the past 4 days. Maybe I had 3 slices. so how does that whole loaf of bread disappear? My lovely ungrateful, inconsiderate, overweight, unhealthy, glutton of a mother - in-law. She has been eating 4 slices every morning for the past few days. Why? Cause she is too lazy to go food shopping. I spend more money on their food than I do on ours! It happens all the time! Everything I buy they use! I understand that if there is bread sure have some, but don't eat the whole fuckn thing on me! Have a lil respect and consideration!

Now this doesn't just apply to the bread, this is anything I put in the fridge. Now, I think everyone knows that I don't drink soda, or anything else besides water. Well a few months ago I had bought myself a special treat. Its Italian lemon soda. Its not sweet like normal soda, its 150 cal per can, so seeing how I'm on a diet its a very rare and special treat for me. That and I have to be in the mood to have a stomach ache afterward. Now since its imported its expensive. I got a six pace and called it a day. I have one can left. Mind you I only had 3 previously. So where did the other 2 go? Into my mother-in-law. Who knew that it was a special treat for myself. I bought it as my b-day present! Did she care? No!

Now, me and my hubby are 2 people. I buy things like potatos, butter, milk, eggs, drinks, garlic, onions, tomatos, canned tomatos, bread (not just my bread), ketchup, dish detergent, laundry detergent, Clorox whips, and the list goes on. Now its me hubby and my one year old daughter. We live with my Mother-in-law, father-in-law, brother-in-law and sister-in-law. Why am I paying for those 4 extra people. Not to mention that my father-in-law, brother-in-law and sister-in-law are BEYOND WASTEFUL! They have a plate of food and wind up throwing more than half of it in the trash! EVERY DAY! The only reason I don't put my mother in law in that category is her mouth is a garbage! She will have 10 servings of anything put in her face! So She doesn't waist food, but everyone else does. I pay my hard earned money for the rest of them to throw it in the trash!

Me and hubby buy special detergent, for my daughter's cloths... I have to hide it! Yea I know pathetic! When is this ever going to stop! Yes we live there for free, but believe me I already pay my dues and its not in the stuff that they use of ours. I am their personal driver! I'm my sister-in-laws babysitter (she is 15!), I am the only one who cleans in that house! uhhh, I'm sick of this shit! I want to move!!!!!! NOW

sorry bout the rant... I'm beyond frustrated!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Its late so this shall be short

I just wanted to keep everyone in the loop. I did great for 2 days working out and what not but I do have to say that I was soar for a few days and than stress of a "loving and happy marrage" stepped in. You know those days when you want to kill you lovely hubby cause they are just that horrible of a person!
Well that started on thursday. I had such high hopes for my day. I was so excited about what I wanted to do and get done... well nothing happened the way it was supposed to. I do have to say though that things are better. Not 100% there is a lot of work that has to be done. I am not someone that looks for change in others. I accept them the way they are but seriously, hubby has to step up his game! AND SOON.

I can't keep on living like this. for the most part I want to move out and we have no savings, I also am someone who hates to repeat themselves. So I am a believer in do it cause its got to get done. Serioulsy why do I have to keep after him like a child? I shouldn't have to at all! but anyway. I just hope he makes progress and doesn't digress again. I can't stand when he does that. I told him on thursday:
"I am anoying the hell out of myself when I have to repeat myself, You know I don't want to listen to myself bitch again."

Now if those arn't the words of a pissed off woman than I dont know what is...

Well anyway after a full out blowout last night (saturday), and a rough night seeing how I can't sleep when im upset, today went well. We had a good day. I hope that things will get better. All I got to say is that I am making progress in my life and if he can't keep up with me he will be left in the dust.

ok well nighty night people!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

quizzle for shillze....

Sorry bout the title I just had to!

1. Who was your first prom date? never went to prom, But I did pick up my bro from prom night who was the chef that cooked for where my prom was held.

2. Do you still talk to your first love? Well, The kid I was in love with forever, I would consider not my first love. my first boyfriend I would consider my first love, and my only regret. yes I still talk to him. I even saw him over the summer.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink? hmmm, been drinking wine since I remember, and other desert liqueurs too.. So I would say first time was wine at about 4-5 years

4. What was your first job? Bakery I was 15, I miss those days. I made 85 bucks a week! I felt rich!

5. What was your first car? Poniac grand am, blue. This car is the love of my life! (No I do not have it any longer my ex destroyed it!)

6. Who was the first person to text you today? mia

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning? my daughter rash butt... So I guess my daughter..

8. Who was your first grade teacher? oh damn, I forgot her name but I did like her alot.

9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane? I was a year old I went to italy

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk? My bff I met in kindergarten, and she is my daughter's godmother... we get together about once a month... Love her to death but we never get to see each other enough we have different lives and different schedules

11. Where was your first sleepover? my bff's house, unless you count my aunt's house

12. Who was the first person you talked to today? my daughter. If it doesnt count cause she cant talk back than hubby

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time? my cuz, I was a junior brides maid

14. What was the first thing you did this morning? feed my daughter

15. What was the first concert you went to? hatebreed, that was the first concert apart from like orchestra concerts with my parents.

16. First tattoo? nope

17. First piercing? earings before I left the hospital when I was born

18. First foreign country you went to? italy, when I was one (im not sure if it was earlier, might have been. my bro went when he was 6 months and I know I was a lil older than him the first time I went... )

19. First movie you remember seeing? I have no idea....

20. What state (province) did you first live in? NY, always and maybe forever

21. Who was your first room mate? Chrissy, Uhhh I really did not like her...

22. When was your first detention? I dont know, I know Ive gotten detention but I dont think I ever served detention.... Yea I was good like that...

23. When was your first kiss? freshman year with my first bf, the one above...

24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance? Oh there is just way too many things to answer that question...

25. Who will be the next person to post this? ? maybe someone that wants me to know them better.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

New England Clam Chowder!

Yummy Yummy Yummy Yummy Yummy!!!!!

All I have to say is new England clam chowder is really easy to make! Sorry no pics but I do have to say it looked, smelled and tasted and yummy! I found the recipe online on youtube! Its actually an Alton Brown special that they added to youtube. So there is this thing called Pork Bacon. I never heard about it before. Holy cow its glorified bacon, there is soo much salt on it too. uh anyway the recipe calls just for the pork bacon fat. that onions, potatoes milk, clams and clam juice. I always though it was this way complicated dish. If you watch the video , you'll see just how easy it is. now most shows the elapse time so that cooking for like 3 hours only takes a half. well just to let you know it only took an hour from beginning to end! I do have to say that I did have two servings though.

Anyway besides yummy chowder (yes I like saying chowder), I have worked out for the past 2 days. I am very proud of myself. I do have to say that working out with the munchkin is not that easy. She keeps on pulling on my resistance band and tries to take my Wii remote away from me. Oh and the best had to be my daughter laughing at me. Yes she was laughing at me working out... Great confidence booster! yea right.. well I'm happy I make someone laugh... :(

More importantly this morning I weighed in at 143, I am not sure how accurate that actually is but I hope it is progress! I do have to say that I have been doing very poorly on keeping my cal down, than again my water intake has been quite low. I have been averaging 10 glasses a day. I need to go buy myself a water bottle to take to work with me. I am thinking one that holds 20 oz. This way I have 12 in the am 12 as tea, 20 oz at work, and 12 more oz as soon as I get home. now that's 56 oz by 3 pm! I think that's pretty good!

I will be focusing on my water these next few days to see if it helps. I am hoping with the increase of water I can decrease my cal at lest by 100 or so. I have to see how I did with the Chowder, to see if I went over at all. I am aiming for 1200 a day and before dinner I was at 600 for the day. Which means if 2 servings was 600 or less I'm in! Oh speaking of counting cal. I am wearing my pants, that back in august Just fit, now I do have to say that I am down almost 10lbs! Holy cow! But I put my pants on today and they feel a lil lose without being all strapped up in tights! This is progress! I wish that I could see overall loss in my arms though. Like I feel when I take a pic of myself I have this lil head on this fat body cause my arms make me look huge! I look ok when I wear long sleeve shirts but I feel very uncomfortable in a long sleeve shirt. I feel that it is cause my arms are so much larger. I know they have gone down but has it gone down enough is the question? NO! is the answer...

So besides my fat arms, I am very happy with my gag results as of yet. I know that the challenge is only half over and I hope to double my results in the coming weeks.

Cake and cupcakes!

So recently I have talked about baking more than ever. Did I mention I love to cook, I think so. Did I mention I love to bake, I'm sure of it! Well I want to share with you all the pics of all the cupcake and cake from the birthday party.

This is Minnie! Ain't she a cuite! That was my daughter's Party B-day Cake

This is tray 1&2 of cupcakes, one was halloween decorations!

Tray 3&4 had to have some cool down time in the fridge cause the icing started to melt.

Tray 5, we had to start using the tin trays cause we had no where else to put them!

Tray 6, They look sooo good! I found that I had pink sugar and called my mom at 8pm to come over and bring more. I begged and begged, she was a big poopie head and said no... BUT, she almost said yes (and this again is why I don't talk to my father)
These are the last 3 cupcakes that got away! They were a thank you for my neighbor who helped me do all those damn cupcakes!
And this is my neighbor who was more than the best ever! And that is our lil trooper who was up till almost 10pm with us! The poor thing was way too tired! And yes my neighbor is a Yankee fan. I don't know why we let her in the house wearing that but we did! Hubby is a Red Sox fan and everyone else are Met fans....

Now that you got to see all the cupcakes and the cake, I want to say that I found baking classes at the local Michaels, I really want to sign up for the classes. I just hope that they are free! They say that they cost but you can't find a cost anywhere. I will be going this week to see what they have available!
I mean I pretty much know how to do alot, I used to work in a bakery but I really only worked with butercream. I also never made buttercream. Even though I'm in love with it. More than anything I need the right supplies! I need a pastry bag and I need the tools to decorate cakes. I can make layered cakes and its loads of fun but they always come out crappy cause I don't have the right stuff. I talked to one of my friends she gets her supplies from Michaels, she says they have ready made fondant and everything too! I never though the craft store would be the place to carry baking supplies but I guess it makes sense...
Even though I am on a diet I have been very good when baking to not go over board! I have one piece, or less than a serving once a day. Since my cal are low every day I have room. I try my hardest though to keep my sugar low. But I also know depriving my body of sweets leads to disaster. So I try to keep any dessert to a limited quantity.
So this has been my stick lately. I guess its part of my creativity that I have been hiding... That and sometimes I feel bored! I feel like I can be doing soooo much more with my time. I really want to do soo much, I feel sometimes that I can and sometimes that I'm completely incapacitated. I really want to get over that feeling. I know I should be able to do anything and everything. One day I will get there I just hope that it is soon!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

back to the old grind

Well, Back to the old grind I have much to go over with everyone.

I have come to some new realizations. Thanks to GAG and Ms. Sheila! I am expanding myself over here. I know that most of my blog has not been about weight loss, but most of it has been. And I do mean MOST of it. I have set out to accomplish more with this challenge than just lose weight. And at that, my only "weight loss" posts will happen on Tuesday. (unless a post for GAG challenge). I am going to focus on many different things here. But I want this blog to be about me. Many times I talk about my daughter and what not, but I will not be going on about all that any more. This blog, after the challenge will be re-named to suit it better. But I have started 2 other blogs and I will be using them. My mommy blog and my organizational pages... Many days I post on here just what has to be done and other days my whole post revolves around my daughter. I am more than just them! I have more going on in my life than just them. I have soo much to say about my life that this won't cut it. I will start posting real blogs too not just ramble. I will post about topics that interest me, about things that bother me. What inspires me, and so on I think you get the idea. I am going to be doing more with my life, I feel that my daughter is older and I can let go a little bit. My life doesn't always have to depend on her. I can sit and read while she plays I can write while she plays. We can do different things together. And not all baby things. I feel that I can do a full 30min work out with her next to me. I am not sure how well it will work but I have a feeling that I can do it! I also have a feeling that I can write my first book with her around. I feel that I can accomplish more with her than I give myself credit!

Anyway, I will be keeping you all posted on my daily life and what not. I have many many things going on in my life, Please check out my other blogs too. so this way you know everything that I am up to.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I met my goal!

I am 144! That's what I was before this weekend and that's what I am now! I do have my period.. (phew)... but I dont feel too bloated... a word to anyone who is having problems with going#2... spinach dip cleaned out my system! WOW, did it ever. anyway I finished all the dip yesterday so there is no more left. I am proud to say that I crossed off 145 on my goals list! it was a big goal for me and being at 144 is really amazing! I have never been here and stayed here so lets make this a good step in the right direction (aka lets forget about the cupcake I had with my breakfast!) On the workout front, I am still sick and I just got my period.... not to mention that baby is sicky with allergies and can't breath and has a hard time sleeping. So working out was kind of hard. that and We were up till 945 doing laundry (yes the baby too, I know I'm a bad mommy)... but it had to get done! Tonight she will be going to bed on time! With a bath and her teeth brushed! I always forget to do that. Ok seriously, I think I need to start my own personal blog, and start up my mommy blog stuff again! I really want to do my website again, I have soo much to share!
Well this post is not supposed to be about me it is supposed to be about Breast Cancer! I want to let everyone know that this is something that touches home for me! I have seen many people live through this horrific tragedy. It is not an easy thing. It takes a lot of guts to over come such hardships. But I believe that with the dedication and support that everyone is giving Breast Cancer anyone and everyone can overcome it! Please take part in some action to show your support for Breast Cancer this month. Buy or wear something pink, do something for someone else. Make some sort of an effort! I will be buying a Pink candle and giving it to my boss' wife who is currently battling Breast Cancer and just got out of surgery on Friday. I will also be having a week of silence here on my blog, You will not be able to leave comments. Please come back on Wednesday of next week to check in on me! I hope to accomplish a lot by then. But until then I wish everyone a wonderful week.

Monday, October 12, 2009


So this weekend I want to say I did very well, in total I had 3 cupcakes on Saturday and 2 on Sunday. We still have about 3 dozen cupcakes left. and a quarter of the bday cake! I was great with cake Im estimating that each cupcake was 225 cal(on the high side) But I think I made more of an opps with the spinach dip! yummo! my friend makes it, its the most amazing thing in the world! soo fn good! my goal was less chips but more dip! Yesterday I would have to say I had 3 servings of chips and about 7 servings of dip. its cheese and artichokes and spinach, not crazy bad for you but cal do add up. I have no idea how much it would be and I don't want to know. all I know is friday I was 144, I have not weighed in since. If I had any idea I would say its back at 146. I will be working out tonight so I should be swollen tomorrow. I am still sick. and my point count from last week is all messed up, I will try to fix it and give a total later. I am happy to say that even though I am still sick, I was able to get everything done the party went well (thanks to amazing friends!) and we will be having a new addition to the family soon! (april 8th) Hubby's aunt, she is 34, my new bff! she is 4 months preggo. Im sooo mad she kept it from me, but not mad enough not to be SUPER BEYOND WORDS HAPPY! They kept the preggo from everyone! so im not soo upset, than again all she had to do was smile and I knew! oh its soo exciting I hope its a boy! I hope I hope I hope! Anyway I can tell you right now most of my wed/fri will be taken up by taking care of the new momma! uh I cant even tell you how happy I am! I am going over there on Friday to help her out cause she has 2 kids and is super sick, poor thing. Anyway, I am still sick myself, better but if not better by wed I am going to the doc! (two fold a scale that is very accurate!) Oh and I got back the food stamps stuff, I sent in all the documents that they needed! I am soo proud of myself! I am really hoping that this goes through. I know that its not something to be proud about but its something that will save me and hubby's butt every month!

And I have a new modivating factor to keep my desk at home organized every day... my daughter can reach and pull everything down! AHHH, its hell, so every day for the past week I have been keeping it all nice and clean and everything put away... also, despite my constant complaints of not having everything always in its place, found all the paperwork for the food stamps in like 5 min and was able to do it all in like 20! I have to say that I am very organized even though I complain I'm not as organized as I want to be.

I am going to be working out tonight without fail! and I am going to be walking tomorrow. I dont know if 2 workouts tomorrow is a good idea cause I am still sick. I will see when the time comes. Ok well lata everyone, I got to go check on the rest of my team and I have to change my background for the week of silence that is rapidly approaching!

week 6 challenge :Totals

Water: 15 points for every 8oz
Tuesday [120] 8 Glasses
Wednesday [150] 10 Glasses
Thursday [] 3

Supliments (Vitamins and minerals): 10 points a day
Tuesday [X]
Wednesday [X]
Thursday [X] I almost forgot but I did get them!

Food: 25 Points for every day you stick to plan

Exercise: 25 Points for every 30 minutes
Tuesday []
Wednesday []
Thursday []

Sleep: 10 points for 6 hours sleep, 15 points for 7 hours sleep, 20 points for 8+ hours sleep (per day) (this may be impossible but we shall see!
Tuesday [10pm - 2:30]
Wednesday [8pm-2am]I forced myself to sleep. I had to pee at 2, but otherwise it would have been 7 hours!
Thursday []

Blogging: 25 points per day
Tuesday [X]
Wednesday [X]
Thursday [X]

Team Support: 50 points (per entire challenge)
Tuesday [X]
Wednesday [X]
Thursday [X]

Holiday Prep: 50 points (per entire challenge)
I decorated for Halloween! I know that doesn't count, this week it will not happen with the party and all. I do have alot of planning left for the party. I will place it here and let you decide if it counts:

To do:
Clean florida room (daddy has baby)
Clean living room (with baby) [X]
put down play matt!!!!! [X]
Clean laundry room (with baby)[X]
finish putting away baby's laundry (with baby) [X]

(thursday)- food shopping (with baby)
Barnes and nobel( steffies present)
bath and body work (michelle's present)
Tomato sauce
Chop meat
Chunk meat
Veggies (carrots,celery, cherry tomatos, can of olives)
Ranch dip for veggies (we have! wahoo)
Mop floors(daddy has baby)
Caity coming over to help with cupcakes(bringing extra trays)

make sauce for ziti
Bread chicken cutlet
make cake and cupcakes (caity coming over)
Clean kitchen(with baby)

decorate (steff coming to help at 11)
make chicken cutlet
Put together baked ziti
Balloons at 12/Ice
2pm stick fries in oven

Do something for you : 50 points (per entire challenge)

I did something for myself the other day. I bought a waxing kit. I plan on using it this weekend. I will update you if i do, I will also be doing my nails!

Friday, October 09, 2009

Thank you

Thanks ladies for caring about me. I just want to make this quick. I am still sick and still chuggn along I stayed home from work today and got 2 more hours of sleep. bugga is sleeping now... I just finished washing the kitchen from top to bottom litterally... Anyway I got much more to do. since I dont have the time to chit chat I just wanted to let you all know that I am down to 144, it might be right it might not, but I finally went #2 which means I feel 10lbs lighter... the only other thing is I have had sooo little fluids today :( that I know im low on water weight.. I am going to go hydrate myself now... Take to you all on sunday I will post pics of the party! everyone take care and have a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, October 08, 2009

This momma is officially sick!

uh, yes you heard it first, im sick! I think I have the flu! We have her first bday party and I'm sick. But me and hubby thinks we know where it came from. my MIL and FIL both got the flu shots, than omar got what we think was a minor flu also, now me and my BIL are both sick.. I also think that the reason my daughter was the way she was for the past few days with fevers and what not was from the flu... poor thing. I mean 2 teeth did come in but to have constant on/off fevers for 4 days, it was the flu... I'm living through this thing cause im on motrin... its helping but I still feel it. No wonder I have felt like such shit these past few days! ok anyway.. I have alot to do today its going to be a busy day. I also really want to get some work done at work today... So I will keep this short

I am 147 today. Now normally I would say fine, but this being sick would explain the needing to pee every 5 min, and I have been drinking way lots more water than I usually do. that and im prob holding a lot of water too. I also can't seem to go #2 on a regular basis. I dont get it I feel like I'm caring 5lbs just in my bowels! So anyway I'm a lil up but not really concerned about it. Im sick at the moment. my main concern is to stay super hydrated and just get better. I don't have time to rest so I just have to take it easy!

I don't want to be at work today but we need the money and I have to go to the bank on my way home. Hubby got his FIRST PAYCHECK. I am sooo proud of him! he is super excited too! (he just won't say it)...

I do have to say though that I still feel that if I'm bloated my pants won't fit.. even though they still do! Its an odd concept. I guess that I have not been able to fit into my cloths for so long I feel that I am still what I once was. I also have a poor image of myself currently because of what I used to look like. I have lost the weight I am less than I was prepreg. and yet I feel overwhelmed with what I used to be and not what I am. I mean wearing my pants they fit better than they did before I was preggo. They really do, I have lost alot in my lower half which at one time I though would have been impossible. I always had a large butty! I was always proud of it. and its leaving me, upset no, concerned, a little. I have always loved my large lower half. It was always good to me. hehe, ok seriously though, its just odd to be losing my bottom half. I really want to lose my tummy more than anything. I know sit ups are in order and I was doing them for a while. Not recently with the way I have been feeling. Although I do have to say I have been walking more than I ever have since HS. Wow I was crazy back then, I used to walk miles on end all over the place! The place I do want to lose weight is on the inside of my thighs... and my arms. They have gone down drastically but not enough to what I want. I feel like I got super fat arms and the inside of my legs need to lose a lil of the jiggle! I know though that none of it will go away unless I start working out. my next 10lbs have to be lost through working out. I know its a procrastinating way of putting it but starting Monday I will start working out. This weekend will be hell. I am going to try to do something for sun, but most likely I will need to rest.. Ok thats my plan! than I have 1 week of no weigh in or blogging so I can so focus on my cal and my exercise instead! But before all that I have to soooo get better... later people!

ps this is crazy it took me 5 hours to type this post in between all the work I had today..
pps I hate some of our customers, they think cause they are rich that they are the end all be all...

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

The week ahead

So it seems that we are having a week of silence for BC. I am so in, I will not be blogging and my site will also be pink! I am just letting you all know ahead of time. I think it will give me a much needed break too. I have a lot of people I know that have/had BC and I feel that they would appreciate a dedication to what they have gone through.

on the front of weight loss I have a maintain again I am 145.5, I still feel bloated but I think its cause I soo have to work out. I need to move around and be active. I really need too I think everything in my life is suffering because I have not worked out recently. I have the drive to do more but by the end of the day its gone. Its so hard to keep up. I know alot of it is cause I don't get enough sleep but there is no way around that at this point. I have to keep going! I have to be persistant with my workouts. you would think with they way that I talk to myself I should work out every day.. and yet I don't. my daughter kept on handing me the EA active game... I really want to but i havn't yet... ttg... got to make dindin...

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Tue, Oct 06 2009
Grade Grams Cals


Raisin Cinnamon Swirl Bread
B 100 80
Immune Defense
A 9 24
100% Natural Green Tea
3 0
Lowfat Plain
A 114 61
Sugars, Granulated
D+ 17 66



Total Calories Consumed

I logged my cal for today, in a really long time. I felt completly fine. a lil part of me wanted to binge but I didn't I had a lil piece of steak that I made for my lunch tomorrow so I am going to guess that puts me at 1300 cal for the day! I am very proud of myself. I did great today! I also had a lot more water today. I also switched my tea from green tea to bay leave tea. I am going to do the same thing in the morning. My stomach has been bothering me lately and bay leave tea always makes me feel better. I am still continuing with the 4 tsp of sugar in the mornings and on the weekends since I dont have my yogurt (even though I should), I only have 3 tsp of sugar. I am proud that I was able to not binge on anything. Hubby has a huge cup of hot coco that I would love right about now, but I said no had a glass of water and left. it would have been 300 cal! I really didnt want to go over, I have done soo well today...

And today was a big day! Me and the munchkin got everything on our list done! I am so proud of us! She was cranky and not havn much, but when we got out she was a good lil girl, except for tryn to run away from me in CVS, she thinks now that she is 1 she is all big and independent(haha)... well here is her bday cake! :
There she is in all her cake and glory... she got so upset when she saw the cake and couldn't eat it! she had to have it... crazy! anyway messalot is all there... I was completly grossed out by the mess she made but had to clean it up anyway... ok its off to bed for this momma!
oh wait this is supposed to be one word answers... oh I suck at this!

1. Where is your cell phone?
right in front of me, but its usually in my daughter's mouth. and if you ever try to call me I never answer..
2. Your hair?
I need to dye my hair badly! right now its just my natural hair color.. blablabla brown
3. Your mother?
My aunt
4. Your father?
well thats a lost cause isnt it
5. Your favorite food?
Oh pasta is my fav, but I would have to say Chinese food for not home made
6. Your dream last night?
I have no idea...
7. Your favorite drink?
Water or tea, than again I dont drink anything else. I love Snapple but that's far and few
8. Your dream/goal?
CPA- working from home
9. What room are you in?
Office (boo work)
10. Your hobby?
I dont know being a mommy???
(momming) I know this isnt a word but when you spend 16 out of 18 hours a day doing that I would say its something
11. Your fear?
not being able to provide for my family
(poordome) another not word but being poor.. Than again we are poor but we can still stand
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
In a nice big house with another baby, nice and settled! prob with my CPA too
13. Where were you last night?
Home, where else would I be?
14. Something that you aren't?
15. Muffins?
16. Wish list item?
kitchenaid stand mixer (actual scale im keepn that I sooo want one too! )
17. Where did you grow up?
18. Last thing you did?
19. What are you wearing?
20. Your TV?
21. Your pets?
fish- all died dog -slowly leaving us
22. Friends?
iceland..( it was that or busy)
23. Your life?
24. Your mood?
25. Missing someone?
26. Vehicle?
27. Something you’re not wearing?
28. Your favorite store?
tj maxx
29. Your favorite color?
30. When was the last time you laughed?
last night
31. Last time you cried?
weeks ago
32. Your best friend?
33. One place that I go to over and over?
34. One person who emails me regularly?
35. Favorite place to eat?

so the first half I did my way, full blown answers than when I realized it was one word answers I adjusted some answers and continued with the rest accordingly. As for passing forward, my team already was given the award so I will just post it as a fun survey!

Interesting, Jillian Michaels artical

before the article I just have to say I think my wrist is sprained! I think it would be better at this point to just shoot myself. Im falln to pieces very quickly!

Winning by Losing

By Jillian Michaels

Metabolic Typing

If you you may be thinking that as long as you stay within your caloric range for the week, you can eat whatever you want. Although it’s true that at a basic level weight loss is simple math, there is more to losing weight and getting healthy than just numbers. As you restrict your caloric intake, it is absolutely essential that you eat the right kinds of food to build muscle, strengthen your immune system, and stay energized throughout the process. Sounds simple, right? It would be, except that the way to do this is different for everyone.

Determining Your Metabolic Type
For many years nutritional science has taken a generic, overly standardized approach to health and weight loss. This is why there is no one diet that works for everyone. There was all that hype about the Atkins diet, but Kelly, one of my contestants on The Biggest Loser, lost just one pound in a month of sticking to Atkins. Because I know that we are all different and need to diet according to our specific body’s characteristics, I was able to coach her to lose fifty-five pounds in three months. We were working together on the show, and she lost thirty-five more after that.

Why? Inherited genetics make each one of us unique, from the color of our hair right down to the way our organs function. This uniqueness extends to the way our cells convert nutrients into energy. In order to know how to get the most nutritional bang for your calorie buck, you need to understand your unique metabolic type. Once you do, you can begin to custom design your new dietary lifestyle around the foods that will help you achieve and maintain your ideal weight while also optimizing your physical energy, strength, and mental clarity.

Metabolic typing is really just fancy talk for figuring out how your body processes what you eat—more specifically, how your body deals with the three basic macronutrients in food: carbohydrates, proteins, and fats. Imagine that you are a furnace: your body takes the food you eat and burns it with oxygen to convert its caloric content into energy. This process is known as oxidation, and it’s how the carb content in your food gets turned into glucose and released into the blood. When glucose is released into the blood, the pancreas is cued to release insulin to “clean” your blood of any sugar that is not being used by the body as energy and carry it to your cells, where it gets stored as fat. The fact that we all oxidize the nutrients in our food in different ways is the reason why a particular diet will work for one person and not for another. If you know more about how the nutrients in your food act on your system, you can avoid a lot of unnecessary pitfalls and really maximize your results as you continue on your journey toward total health.

Although rates can vary a lot from one person to the next, most people can be classified according to three basic groups:

1. Fast oxidizers
2. Slow oxidizers
3. Balanced oxidizers

Fast oxidizers burn through the nutrients in their food very rapidly, with the consequence that the carb content is broken down to glucose and released into the blood almost at once. This sudden increase in blood sugar triggers a rapid release of large amounts of insulin to clean away excess sugar, which is stored as fat in your cells. The more carb content in your food, the more energy will be available to your body right away, and the greater the chance that it will not be needed and get stored as fat. Insulin is a quick and effective blood-cleaner, and the dramatic leaps and falls in blood sugar levels that result from fast oxidation lead to the sugar crash effect. For a fast oxidizer, foods with high carb ratios cause fatigue and carb cravings as well as promote fat storage.

Fast oxidizers should eat foods with more proteins and fats in order to slow down their rate of oxidation and insulin release, and to better promote stable blood sugar and sustained energy levels.

Slow oxidizers burn through the nutrients in their food slowly and do not release the glucose from carbohydrates into the blood quickly enough, which means that they do not get converted into glucose, and energy production and availability are delayed.

A slow oxidizer should eat foods with higher ratios of carbs, since protein and fat slow the rate of oxidation and energy production even further.

Balanced oxidizers fall right in between the two. They require foods that have equal quantities of protein, fat, and carbs in order to optimally process, produce, and use the energy from their food.

Now that we have defined the different metabolic types, you’re probably wondering how you’re supposed to know what’s happening in your blood every time you have a snack. Don’t worry—there’s a test, and you can take it right now, and all you need is a pencil and paper. The test is made up of a series of detailed questions that bear on everything from the foods you crave to the dryness of your skin. These questions cover such a wide range of physical attributes because scientists now believe that metabolic type, i.e., the way in which your body processes nutrients, is wired right into a part of your central nervous system that controls a host of other functions within your body. Consequently, if you take a closer look at some of the peripheral functions in your own body, they will shed light on your particular oxidative type and help you pinpoint your specific nutritional needs.

Oxidizer Test

For each of these questions, circle the response that best applies to you. You may not know the answer right off the bat—it may take a couple of days if you have to see a pattern, but really think about these questions and analyze how different foods affect your body and your moods. The better you know yourself, the greater your odds of achieving exactly the results you want.

In the morning, you:
A. Don’t eat breakfast.
B. Have something light like fruit, toast, or cereal.
C. Have something heavy like eggs, bacon or steak, and hash browns.

At a buffet, the foods you choose are:
A. Light meats like fish and chicken, vegetables and salad, a sampling of different desserts.
B. A mixture of A and C.
C. Heavy, fatty foods like steak, ribs, pork chops, cheeses, and cream sauces.

Your appetite at lunch is:
A. Low.
B. Normal.
C. Strong.

Your appetite at dinner is:
A. Low.
B. Normal.
C. Strong.

Caffeine makes you feel:
A. Great—it helps you focus.
B. Neutral—you can take it or leave it.
C. Jittery or nauseous.

The types of foods you crave are (sugar is not listed because everyone craves sugar when they are tired or run-down):
A. Fruits, bread, and crackers.
B. Both A and C.
C. Salty foods, cheeses, and meats.

For dinner, you prefer:
A. Chicken or fish, salad, and rice.
B. No preference—choice varies daily.
C. Heavier, fatty foods like pastas, steak, and potatoes.

After dinner, you:
A. Need to have something sweet.
B. Could take dessert or leave it.
C. Don’t care for sweets and would rather have something salty like popcorn.

The types of sweets you like are:
A. Sugary candies.
B. No preference.
C. Ice cream or cheesecake.

Eating fatty foods like meat and cheese before bed:
A. Interferes with your sleep.
B. Doesn’t bother you.
C. Improves your sleep.

Eating carbs like breads and crackers before your bed:
A. Interferes with your sleep, but they’re better than heavier foods.
B. Doesn’t affect you.
C. Is better than nothing, but you sleep better with heavier foods.

Eating sweets before bed:
A. Doesn’t keep you from sleeping at all.
B. Sometimes makes you feel restless in bed.
C. Keeps you up all night.

Each day, you eat:
A. Two or three meals with no snacks.
B. Three meals with maybe one light snack.
C. Three meals and a lot of snacks.

Your attitude toward food is:
A. You often forget to eat.
B. You enjoy food and rarely miss a meal.
C. You love food and it’s a central part of your life.

When you skip meals, you feel:
A. Fine.
B. You don’t function at your best, but it doesn’t really bother you.
C. Shaky, irritable, weak, and tired.

Your attitude toward fatty foods is:
A. You don’t like them.
B. You like them occasionally.
C. You crave them regularly.

When you eat fruit salad for breakfast or lunch, you feel:
A. Satisfied.
B. Okay, but you usually need a snack in between meals.
C. Unsatisfied and still hungry.

What kind of food drains your energy?
A. Fatty foods.
B. No food affects you this way.
C. Fruit, candy, or confections, which give you a quick boost, then an energy crash.

Your food portions are:
A. Small—less than average.
B. Average—not more or less than other people.
C. Large—usually more than most people.

How do you feel about potatoes?
A. You don’t care for them.
B. You could take them or leave them.
C. You love them.

Red meat makes you feel:
A. Tired.
B. No particular feeling one way or the other.
C. Strong.

A salad for lunch makes you feel:
A. Energized and healthy.
B. Fine, but it isn’t the best type of food for you.
C. Sleepy.

How do you feel about salt?
A. Foods often taste too salty.
B. You don’t notice one way or the other.
C. You crave salt and salt your food regularly.

How do you feel about snacks?
A. You don’t really snack, but you like something sweet if you do.
B. You can snack on anything.
C. You need snacks but prefer meats, cheeses, eggs, or nuts.

How do you feel about sour foods like pickles, lemon juice, or vinegar?
A. You don’t like them.
B. They don’t bother you one way or the other.
C. You like them.

How do you feel about sweets?
A. Sweets alone can satisfy your appetite.
B. They don’t bother you but don’t totally satisfy you.
C. You don’t feel satisfied and often crave more sweets.

When you just eat meat (bacon, sausage, ham) for breakfast, you feel:
A. Sleepy, lethargic, or irritable.
B. It varies day to day.
C. Full until lunch.

When you eat heavy or fatty foods, you feel:
A. Irritable.
B. Neutral—they don’t affect you.
C. Satisfied.

When you feel anxious:
A. Fruits or vegetables calm you down.
B. Eating anything calms you down.
C. Fatty foods calm you down.

You concentrate best when you eat:
A. Fruits and grains.
B. Nothing in particular.
C. Meat and fatty food.

You feel more depressed when you eat:
A. Fatty or heavy foods.
B. Nothing in particular.
C. Fruits, breads, or sweets.

You notice you gain weight when you eat:
A. Fatty foods.
B. No particular food. You gain weight when you overeat.
C. Fruits or carbs.

What type of insomnia, if any, applies to you?
A. You rarely get insomnia from hunger.
B. You rarely get insomnia, but if you do, you often need to eat something in order to fall back asleep.
C. You often wake up during the night and need to eat. If you eat right before bed, it alleviates the insomnia.

Your personality type is:
A. Aloof, withdrawn, or introverted.
B. Neither introverted nor extroverted.
C. Extroverted.

Your mental and physical stamina are better when you eat:
A. Light proteins like egg whites, chicken, or fish and fruits.
B. Any wholesome food.
C. Fatty foods.

Your climate preference is:
A. Warm or hot weather.
B. Doesn’t matter.
C. Cold weather.

You have problems with coughing or chest pressure:
If yes, “C”; if no, move on to the next question.

You have a tendency to get cracked skin or dandruff:
If yes, “C”; if no, move on to the next question.

You have a tendency to get light-headed or dizzy:
If yes, “C”; if no, move on to the next question.

Your eyes tend to be:
A. Dry.
B. Fine.
C. Teary.

Your facial coloring is:
A. Noticeably pale.
B. Average.
C. Pink or often flushed.

Your fingernails are:
A. Thick.
B. Average.
C. Thin.

Your gag reflex is:
A. Insensitive.
B. Normal.
C. Sensitive.

You get goose bumps:
A. Often.
B. Occasionally.
C. Very rarely.

You are prone to:
A. Constipation.
B. No stomach problems.
C. Diarrhea.

When insects bite you, your reaction is:
A. Mild.
B. Average.
C. Strong.

Your body type is:
A. Short and stocky.
B. Average.
C. Tall and thin.

Your nose is:
A. Dry.
B. Normal.
C. Runny.

Scoring Your Metabolic Typing Test

When you have finished the test, add up the number of A answers, B answers, and C answers you have circled.
A______ B______ C______

If your number of C answers is 5 or more higher than your number of A or B answers, you are a fast oxidizer.

If your number of A answers is 5 or more higher than your number of B or C answers, you are a slow oxidizer.

If your number of B answers is 5 or more higher than your number of A or C answers, or if neither A, B, nor C’s are 5 or more higher than the other two, you are a balanced oxidizer.

If you’ve answered this questionnaire and you are still not clear which category is the right one for you, there are two other tests you can take to help clarify your metabolic type. These tests are a little drastic and provocative, and they are only intended for those who truly cannot type themselves using the questionnaire.

1. Niacin test: Take 50 milligrams of niacin on an empty stomach. If you experience an immediate flush, you are most likely a fast oxidizer. If you experience a moderate flushing effect, you are a balanced oxidizer. If you experience a significantly delayed flushing or nothing at all, you are a slow oxidizer.

2. Vitamin C test: Take 8 grams of vitamin C in equally divided doses over 8 hours. The fast oxidizer will respond by feeling acidic and uncomfortable, and may even experience other symptoms such as diarrhea, nausea, or increased intestinal gas. A true balanced oxidizer may find that his or her stomach feels less acidic. A slow oxidizer will have no response at all.
I’m assuming you have now identified yourself somewhere along the fast-slow continuum. Now it’s time to get to know more about your type. Read whichever section applies to you to learn the particular foods and eating habits that are right for your type. If you’re good to your metabolism, it’ll return the favor by working to help you maintain weight loss and good health.

Fast Oxidizers

Fast oxidizers
You require foods with higher percentages of protein and fat than carbohydrates. Make sure there is protein in everything you eat including snacks. Your ideal macronutrient ratio is 20 percent carbs, 50 percent protein, 30 percent fat.

All proteins are not created equal. The ones that are best for you are high-purine proteins, which are commonly found in fattier meats. This is not to say that you should cut out chicken or fish, but you need the heavier proteins most because they help slow down your rate of oxidation.

Choose from this list of proteins when deciding on a meal or snack:

High Purine: organ meats (pâté, liver, etc.), herring, mussels, sardines, anchovies

Moderate Purine: beef, bacon, dark meat chicken, duck, lamb, spareribs, dark meat turkey, veal, wild game, salmon, shellfish (lobster, shrimp, crab), oysters, scallops, octopus, squid, dark tuna

Low Purine: cottage cheese, milk, yogurt, eggs, cheese, white meat chicken, turkey, fish

Your metabolism thrives when your carb intake is limited, but there are different kinds of carbs. Some aren’t as bad as others. Avoid simple carbs, which convert to sugar quickly in the bloodstream. The carbs you can incorporate into your diet are the complex kind found mostly in nonstarchy vegetables. You can choose from these ideal carbs when deciding on a meal or snack.

Low-Starch vegetables: asparagus, cauliflower, celery, mushrooms, spinach

Fruits: avocado, olives, apples and pears (in limited quantity and never without protein on the side)

Grains: sprouted grain bread only (Ezekiel bread is a well-known brand that is available at supermarkets and health–food stores)

Legumes, tempeh, tofu

To best support your metabolism, you should be getting roughly 30 percent of your daily caloric intake from natural oils and fats. Choose these ideal fats when deciding on meal or snack preparation.

Nuts/Seeds (listed in order of protein content): waltnuts, pumpkin seeds, peanuts, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, almonds, cashews, Brazil nuts, filberts, pecans, chestnuts, pistachios, coconut, macadamias

Fat/Oils: butter, cream, almond oil, peanut oil, coconut oil, sesame oil, flaxseed oil, sunflower oil, waltnut oil

Along with knowing the foods that are ideal for you, it is important to know the foods that are worst for you. You don’t always have to eat off the ideal foods list, but the following foods will sabotage your weight-loss efforts.

1. Don’t ever eat a meal that is predominantly carbohydrates.

2. Don’t drink alcohol. It causes an increase in blood sugar and fat storage, and it will lead to a sugar crash as well as an increased appetite for carbs. If you choose to have a drink, avoid sugary cocktails, beer, and wine. Stick to clear alcohols like vodka or rum with calorie-free mixers like diet or club soda, and you can always just do what I do and drink it all straight.

3. Don’t eat carbohydrates that are high on the glycemic load index. The next chapter will tell you everything you need to know about the GLI. For now all you need to know is to stay away from high-GLI foods. It is important for all metabolic types to watch their high-GLI intake, but it is especially crucial for you. If you should happen to eat high-GLI foods, make sure to combine them with a protein in order to slow down the production and release of blood sugar.

4. Don’t drink too much caffeine. It is true that caffeine can be used as a fat burner and a performance enhancer when exercising. This is only effective, however, when the caffeine is taken in pill form in conjunction with aspirin. In the forms of coffee, tea, and soda, caffeine gives you short-term energy but does so by getting your adrenal glands to dump adrenaline into your blood like it’s going out of style. As a result, when the caffeine leaves your system, your adrenal glands will be depleted for a while, which leaves you feeling weak and tired from substandard blood-adrenaline levels. Caffeine also speeds the rate of oxidation, which is the exact opposite of what you want your nutrients to do. Avoid caffeinated beverages whenever possible and keep your overall caffeine consumption to a minimum.

5. Don’t overcook your meat. Avoid overcooked animal products, since heat destroys essential amino acids and valuable enzymes.

You will have less physical ailments and feel energized if you eat the foods that contain the ideal macronutrient ratios for your metabolic type. However, these foods are all very high in calories. You must remember to keep within your caloric allowance in order to lose weight.

Slow Oxidizers

In order to best serve your metabolism and feel energized both physically and mentally, you require foods with a higher percentage of carbohydrates. Your ideal macronutrient ratio is 60 percent carbs, 25 percent protein, and 15 pertcent fat.

The best proteins for slow oxidizers are low-purine proteins, which are found in leaner meats. It’s not that you can never have steak again, but high-purine, high-fat proteins slow down the rate at which you convert nutrients into energy, which is what you’re already doing too slowly, so the less the better. In general, you want to stick to this list.

Low Purine: white meat chicken, turkey breast, lean pork, catfish, cod, flounder, perch, sole, trout, white meat tuna, swordfish, low-fat cheese, low-fat cottage cheese, skim milk, low-fat yogurt, egg whites

Although your metabolic type is better than the others at processing carbs, you still have to pick and choose carefully. You want to avoid simple carbs, which convert into sugar very quickly in the bloodstream, and choose complex carbs instead. Follow this list of ideal carbohydrates when deciding on a meal or snack.

Vegetables—Low Starch: asparagus, cauliflower, celery, mushrooms, spinach, broccoli, brussels sprouts, cabbage, collard greens, cucumbers, garlic, kale, leafy greens, onions, peppers, scallions, sprouts, tomatoes, watercress

Vegetables—Moderate: Starch beets, eggplant, jicama, okra, yellow squash, zucchini

Fruits: apples, berries, cherries, citrus fruits, peaches, pears, apricots, plums, tropical fruits, olives

Grains: barley, brown rice, buckwheat, corn, couscous, kasha, millet, oat, quinoa, rye, spelt

Legumes tempeh, tofu (eat sparingly as they are high in purines) beans, peas (should be eaten fresh, never dried)

You should be on a low-fat diet to keep your metabolism working smoothly. This does not mean no fat—fat is still an essential part of any healthy diet. You should allow 15 percent of your caloric intake to come from fat. You can go over that percentage if you like, but eating foods that are too high in fat content can make you feel lethargic, anxious, and irritable. Choose from this list of fats when cooking a meal or having a snack.

Nuts/Seeds: raw and unsalted only—be very sparing

Fats/Oils: vegetable or nut oils such as almond, coconut, flaxseed, olive, peanut, sunflower, walnut

It’s not enough to know the foods that are ideal for you—you also have to learn which foods are worst for you. If you find yourself straying from the list of suggestions, remind yourself of these guidelines.

1. Don’t eat foods that are fatty or that contain high-purine proteins, such as organ meats and fish such as herring and sardines. Limit your intake of fats and oils, as they will slow down your ability to convert food into energy even further. Avoid red meat or dark white meats, and stay away from high-fat dairy, nut butters, and avocados.

2. Don’t drink alcohol. This is less of a concern for you than for fast oxidizers, but at the end of the day alcohol still increases your blood sugar and inhibits fat metabolism.

3. Don’t drink too much caffeine. This too is less of a concern for you than it is for fast oxidizers, but caffeine gives you energy by acting on your adrenal glands, causing them to over-produce and flood your system with adrenaline. When the caffeine’s effect has worn off, your adrenals are exhausted and you are left with lower-than-normal levels of adrenaline in your system, which makes you feel tired and sluggish.

4. Don’t exceed one serving per meal of simple or starchy carbs like potato, pasta, or rice, and always eat them with a lean protein to help stabilize your blood sugar.
Remember to consume your ideal foods in accordance with your caloric allowance; otherwise, you will not lose weight.

Balanced Oxidizers

If you are a balanced oxidizer, your diet is the easiest to follow, since you require an equal percentage of carbs, fats, and proteins. You feel at your best on a diet that incorporates a wide range of foods. Your ideal macronutrient ratio is 40 percent carbs, 30 percent protein, and 30 percent fat.

You operate best when you are getting 30 percent of your total calories from protein. Be careful to mix the kinds of protein you eat so that you consume high-fat and high-purine proteins with low-fat and low-purine proteins. Choose from this list of proteins when deciding on a meal or snack.

High Purine: organ meats (pâté, liver, etc.), herring, mussels, sardines, anchovies

Moderate Purine: beef, bacon, dark meat chicken, duck, lamb, spareribs, dark meat turkey, veal, wild game, salmon, shellfish (lobster, shrimp, crab), oysters, scallops, octopus, squid, dark tuna, eggs, regular-fat cheeses

Low Purine: white meat chicken, turkey breast, lean pork, catfish, cod, flounder, perch, sole, trout, white tuna, swordfish, low-fat cheese, low-fat cottage cheese, skim milk, low-fat yogurt, egg whites

With regard to carbs, the real significant difference between balanced, fast, and slow oxidizers is not the types of carbs allowed but the quantity. You should get 40 percent of your nutrients from carbs, but like everyone you should avoid simple carbs and foods that are rated high on the glycemic load index, which we get into in the next chapter. Refined sugars like those found in cookies, sweets, and soda and processed grains like white bread or white rice should be shunned whenever possible, especially on a weight-loss regimen. You do best with a mix of fruits and vegetables from both the fast and slow oxidizers’ carb lists.

Vegetables—Low Starch: asparagus, cauliflower, celery, mushrooms, spinach, broccoli, brussels sprouts, cabbage, collard greens, cucumbers, garlic, kale, leafy greens, onions, peppers, scallions, sprouts, tomatoes, watercress

Vegetables—Moderate: Starch beets, eggplant, jicama, okra, yellow squash, zucchini

Fruits: apples, berries, cherries, citrus fruits, peaches, pears, apricots, plums, tropical fruits

Grains: barley, brown rice, buckwheat, corn, couscous, kasha, millet, oat, quinoa, rice, rye, spelt

Legumes/Lentils (all fresh, nothing dried), tempeh, tofu, beans, peas

In order to best support your metabolism, you need to be getting roughly 30 percent of your calories from natural oils and fats. Don’t eat excessive amounts of fat, but don’t specifically restrict your fat intake. You can choose from fats on both the fast and slow oxidizers’ lists of permissible fats.

Nuts/Seeds: (listed in order of protein content) walnuts, pumpkin seeds, peanuts, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, almonds, cashews, Brazil nuts, filberts, pecans, chestnuts, pistachios, coconut, macadamias

Fats/Oils: butter, cream, almond oil, peanut oil, coconut oil, sesame oil, flaxseed oil, sunflower oil, walnut oil

Eat the foods that are ideal for you. Also remember these guidelines of what not to do.

1. Don’t eat meals made up of just one macronutrient. Make sure you adhere to your ideal ratio of 40 percent carbs, 30 percent protein, and 30 percent fat.

2. Don’t drink alcohol. It depletes glycogen storage in the liver, which causes an increase in blood sugar and fat storage. In addition, you will most likely experience a sugar crash, which leads to a heightened appetite for carbs and the nutrients you need to metabolize them. If you do have a drink, choose wisely and avoid sugary cocktails, beer, and wine. Opt instead for clear alcohols such as vodka or rum with calorie-free mixers, like club soda diet, light fruit juices or diet Snapple. And there’s always straight or on the rocks as well.

3. Don’t eat foods that are high on the glycemic load index. (Again, see the next chapter for a full understanding of glycemic load.) If you should happen to eat high-GLI foods, make sure you accompany them with protein in order to show down the rate of oxidation and stabilize blood sugar and energy levels.

4. Don’t drink too much caffeine. Caffeine is only effective as a fat burner or performance enhancer when taken in pill form and combined with aspirin. In the forms of coffee, tea, or soda, caffeine gives you short-term energy but does that by signaling to your adrenal glands to dump all of their store out into your blood. When the caffeine wears off, your adrenal glands are so depleted they have to take a break, which means that you feel tired and weak.

5. Don’t overcook your meat. Avoid overcooked animal products, since heat destroys essential amino acids and valuable enzymes.

Now that you have your list of foods that are ideal for your metabolic type, you will have more energy and feel better if you eat to support your metabolism. However, many of the foods on your list are high in calories. Your diet should incorporate these types of foods in accordance with your caloric allowance.

Excerpted with permission from Jillian Michaels' new book, Winning by Losing.


Measurments- sept 1, 2009

L arm: 12.5
R arm: 12.5
L thigh: 26
R thigh: 25.5
L calf: 15
R calf: 14.5
Bust: 34.5
Waist: 37
Thighs: 40.5