Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Looking out instead of in

Taking the time to look at what is really on the outside of that box, feeling the uncomfortable feeling of not having your walls up and being vulnerable plays a huge part in making my days better. It sounds to odd to hear it, but that uncomfortable feeling has been a wake up call for me to actually take the time to look at the world around me and realize that I am only one of many and that I am not doing this alone. Not only that but that I can be happy with myself while being uncomfortable. It also helps me realize what I want more, It helps me put in prospective what is really important and what my wants and needs are.

Although I have stated many times what I will do and how my lack of integrity takes over I am happy to say that  I will no longer say anything instead I will do. I will do what feels uncomfortable to do. I will do what pushes me outside of my boundaries... I will not hide behind words. I will step into the light and be proud of having it shine on me! Be proud of who I am not what I have become. Be proud of what I look like and not remember what I once was.

Every day is a step in the right direction for a more fulfilling feeling! More of what I want in my life. Every day I will strive for what I want. And even when I feel like I have to, I will question myself is it something that I want? Will this activity (even when I dont want to do it) give me the result of something I want?

And with this blog it is clear that I WANT to lose weight... Which entails me having to work out. Having to eat less and having to stay active and be healthy. So this blog is no longer about what I have to do about getting in shape it is about what I want to do which is be in shape... AND in order to be in shape I have to be active.. so my blog will consist of me being! BEING what I want, Acting the way I want. Having what I want not having to do anything!!!!

I love who I am and how I am so I have to embrace me and feel vulnerable in order to go out there and grab hold of what I want and be whatever it is that is needed!

So today I want to be:
A Gymnast!
A Wife!
A Mommy!
A Business Woman!

I am so amazing and being that will surely be that backbone for being what I want! And EMBRACING ME!!!!

I hope everyone has the most empowering and amazing day ever!!!!


  1. ::high five::

    The journey to being, to embracing who we ARE, is certainly amazing me lately.

    Great post, sounds like you are at a wonderful place right now too! I am excited.




Measurments- sept 1, 2009

L arm: 12.5
R arm: 12.5
L thigh: 26
R thigh: 25.5
L calf: 15
R calf: 14.5
Bust: 34.5
Waist: 37
Thighs: 40.5