Monday, November 02, 2009

I feel a little lost at this point

I feel like life keeps passing me by. The days come and go and I am just there. Yes I get stuff accomplished but nothing stands out to me. Its almost like I am just watching my life go by. I am still working towards all my goals. I am doing things but I feel as if its not me. I want to stop and smell the roses. hmmmm...

I just came across my New Years Resolution! I am a work-a-holic, I am constantly busy and preoccupied with life. So I (just now) figured out what my new years resolution will be. I want to enjoy life. I want to go out and play, Be apart of my family and friends. Enjoy chit chatting. Get to know new people. Next year I voe not to keep my head down and mull away at what needs to be done. I want to relax, enjoy what I am doing and look up. Look around at the world that seems to pass me by.

I feel that this is an amazing resolution! For the next 2 months I will work feverishly to make all attempts to do everything and get everything pending done and out of my life! I want 2010 to be a wonderful year filled with happy memories! New things, new experiences, new friends, reconnecting with long lost friends. I will pick my head up and look around! Yes, I will keep focused on my to do's and responsibilities but I want to live more and work less. I want to enjoy more of what I do! Yes I know that this coming year with trying to move I will be preoccupied and focus driven towards my goal but that doesn't mean I have to give up the joys around me.

I resolve to enjoy 2010 to the fullest! To start fresh with smelling the roses, capturing the moment as is. Not working to create but to be part of the creation. Now as my nature I need to prepare and work towards my future of freedom. These next two months will be focus driven. I will keep my head down and work to accomplish all my goals. From weight loss to personal accomplishments. As for next year I will be more about being instead of doing.

Well I really want to enjoy my holiday this year so I will focus on getting everything in my life out of the way before Xmas so that I can enjoy life and live more freely!

I know I have alot to do! But the idea of being free of everything makes me already feel better. I want to be free of weigh loss I want to be free of clutter. I want to be free of my accident case. I want to be free of living with my in-laws, I want to be free to spend time with my friends and family. I want to be free to do what I want when I want.

More later!


  1. I totally understand you here... I feel like all I ever do is work work work...whether it's at home or at my job. Never any fun family time. I miss that!

  2. When I had my youngest, it was july 2001. September 11th put everything in perspective. Every now and again I lose focus on what's really important. But i still remember standing there holding my two month old and realizing the only think that is important in the whole world are the people we love and who love us. Live life while you got it.



Measurments- sept 1, 2009

L arm: 12.5
R arm: 12.5
L thigh: 26
R thigh: 25.5
L calf: 15
R calf: 14.5
Bust: 34.5
Waist: 37
Thighs: 40.5