Saturday, November 14, 2009
Where I stand
Actually, I have no idea where I stand.
I am all over the place at the moment. I am trying to work out but I never get around to it, I have been great to eat what I want how I want and I have maintained this for a few weeks now. But I am not satisfied with where I stand. I am still 144, I am a size
8 and even though I am super happy to be back to my prepreg size I want more! I want to lose the last 10lbs! Or at least tone up and work out every day or so. I want to be in shape. My stomach is killing me, Prob from this girdle I'm wearing. I am tired and super stressed. I know working out will help me relax and help me stay focused. But I feel like I am driving myself up a wall. I want to be paperless, I want to maintain a clean house and cook clean and do everything else momminess! But I keep on pushing me away. I know this is very bad. I am almost avoiding the fact of these last 10lbs! I feel great that my cloths fit but I want them to fit better. I still have some that don't fit! Maybe I should pull them out and put them in
my closet so I can see them every day.
Uh I don't feel like doing all that work now. I want to finish what I started with this paperless buisness, its all I talk about lately I know its getting annoying but....
Thats all I have left is that envelope! And its just pay stubs and deposit receipts from the bank! Which I am not scanning! I will wait till next year to start a new year fresh. I will scan the last one of 09 for tax purposes and call it a day.
I finished up most of my school paperwork, I will actually finish it up tonight as soon as I am done. Than I have my writing to do, I might do it all tonight its still early and hubby is upstairs with the boys.... So I have the time.
I know I will feel so much better when I am 100% done, I wanted to work out tonight but my stomach started to hurt. Oh also I bought Chamomile tea so that it can help calm my nerves I have been a ball of stress lately. And worst is I hate taking it out on hubby. Its so upsetting. There is no need for both of us to be worked up for no reason. So, I am trying to make progress. I really am. I need to destress and I need to stay organized. I think what is stressing me is Monday,
on Monday I have my arbitration case for my accident. I have to do my nails and hair and be presentable, which I so don't feel like doing. But I shall! I am hoping that after that day I feel a little better. I want all of it to be over with. It isn't a big stress its just a bother. I also don't want to have to deal with this ever again.
Anyway that is what has been going on with me, I have been busy and distracted. I also have not had anything worth reading to post. Once I start with my writing I will post stuff so that you will all have something interesting to read.
PS speaking of tomorrow I have decided I am getting a camera for xmas, We are going to buy it on black friday, so tomorrow we are going over to best buy to figure out which one I like better my upgraded canon power shot or a Nikon touch screen.... I can't decide, well more on that tomorrow... off to work I go!
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