So I have calmed down a little bit

I am still an emotional mess, I can't get over the fact of how heavly I was relying on the food stamps to go through. I am also beside myself upset that I do not want to do anything at all.

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

I know that everything will work out for the best. I know that this is not a total set back just a minor one. I know that things will get better and be fine. :( I just have to wait....

I had a good day today, well kind of I took off from work (I know bad idea) but I needed a break. and with not having to cook dinner I only had to do laundry today. I only got in a half hour nap. but I think it did help. I am still tired and have a massive headach, yet I feel somewhat rested.

I got in an hour walk today, it was beyond hot in the house today so me and the munchkin went out for a nice long walk. I even talked to my mom. I think that helped me feel a lil better. I am going to see her tomorrow. Uh I hope we just don't have another fight. But she seemed in good spirts so lets just go with it..

Now above I wrote this too shall pass. I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason and things will always change. I am a lover of change and strive for different in my life. I don't know if anyone would consider it a good thing but I do. So I am going to say that I will take everything good and bad and try to grow from it. Next year will be a new and better year. We have a purpose and a plan. That is what matters, we are moving forward! We are in the positive in our bank account and have all our bills covered and have extra to save!

I have much that I want to accomplish in my life and this GAG challenge should be a main focus for me. Losing weight to better my health and my life. I do have to say that today I was able to walk for the whole hour and not feel winded or tired. I know this is progress for me cause I always feel out of breath when I walk. I have three more days this week to work out. Fri/Sat/Sun would be perfect, as long as I can fit it in! otherwise I also have monday. I can fit in 3 workouts in 4 days. That was my goal and so far I did my one walk, I can do the 3 workouts.

I looked at myself in the mirror today I feel alot smaller. Which is a great thing, I just want to be even less. I haven't taken meausrement since the beginning of the challenge. But I can feel that I have lost alot. I guess almost ten lbs makes a big difference. That is all I have left to do lose another 10lbs and I have 8 1/2 weeks to do it! I want to lose 2 lbs a week, this way I will be between 130-135 by the end of the challenge. Last week really disapointed me! I was down to 143, I was I swear. But weigh in came and I was still 144. uhhh so damn frustrating... I want to be at least 143 but more 142 come tuesday! I have to focus on eating a little better. I also have to focus on eating a little less. My cal intake has been in the 1800's these past few days and I don't like it. It doesn't feel good either. I feel way too stuffed.

I will be trying better this weekend to eat less and workout more. ok well its time for me to go... I'm falln asleep watchn hubby play rockband leggos! hehe, they got cute butts!