Worry

The first step of my new year plan will be to get rid of the worry. There is nothing to change the outcome of a situation. Worrying will not change anything. Do any of you constantly worry? Is there something that worrying does for you. I know worrying stresses me out to no avail and it doesn't do anything else. I have to constantly be told by hubby not to worry that that is all I do and its a bad thing that leads to worse! of course I hate the fact that he is always right about that. See I have come to the conclusion about something, hubby never worries what will be will be but he is someone who regretfully lives in the past. Poor guy! anyway I now see that the worrying mind is of a person that lives in the future of events that have not yet happened... well yea sure thats fine I want to see the future and to know what will be but... I have to stop looking at being there and look at how I am getting there. I am not doing it in the best possible way.I have to take a look around and realize that my thoughts can only do so much to perceive and help me get through the here and now. They can not take me to the future nor can they give me the future that I want. Worrying isn't constantly caring and analyzing for an outcome it is trying to predict the future the way we want it... Well Listen Up People!!!! Worrying cant cause or change the future! Ok I said it, more for my sake than anything else.But I have to learn this! It will be the first step that I need to get me out of the blind side that I have in my life. I need to stop trying to predict the future and live now to CHANGE the future. Yet I still can't worry about it, I just have to act about it. If something seems like the right thing to do I will do it.

I have talked so much about moving out and yadayadayada.... I got an email from one of my bff's in regards to my break down the other day, plain and simple she said to let it be, that it was ok, Things will turn out the way they should and I should stop worrying and just wait to see what happens.

I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason and every action has an equal and opposite reaction, so if I move my fingers it will cause a reaction for something else that will happen for a reason. Whatever that reason may be... so every passing day something will take its time to happen and help us through this time. There is nothing that will change what is going on and nothing that my worrying will do.

I feel better with this realization, I can take life one step at a time and everything will be just fine!

Here is to a new day! Go get em tiger!