AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Ok thats all! I just had to get that out. Now for why, don't worry its all good! I fit into my jeans! Like I said yesterday I felt all my cloths were still tight even though I lost 7lbs. So, I have to say its not even that they just fit and they are tight they fit me looser than prepreggo! yes I said it looser than BEFORE I was preg. granted I was heaver by about 5lbs but this is amazing! I am even wearing my cute blue top! not that that matters to any of you but.. I am in love with this top first off its long sleeves and im not a long sleeves person but its got a hood and it has a pocket. Its almost like wearing a hoodie but its a cute/sexy/fitted knit top! And its got gold floral design on it. I really should be taking pics of my outfits... But my comp at home is down (well no my mil hasn't paid the internet/cable/car/mortgage/credit cards/house phone.. and prob other stuff too but whatever.) (yes this might be the stress that gets to me but I can't let it get to me!) ANYWAY. I can't upload pics at work, so that's that. I am just beyond happy that these jeans fit cause I have one in light denim and one in dark denim! So thats 2 more pairs of pants to my wardrobe! I have to check my old navy jeans, I am in love with the way they fit. They were looser on me than these were prepreg but tighter when I tried them on last. mostly cause of the gut that I now have... so anyway! I am proud to say that my scale must not be lying. Sorry I doubted him! :) I am so happy!

on other news, I have to say thank you to all my friends who have been so great about sticking by me and encouraging me to press forward! I have to say thank you cause every morning I check your comments and it gives me hope that I'm not alone I can do this and that I do have support. You give me the will I need to get through my day. I do have good news I have done most everything off of my list from yesterday... I don't think finding 1400 will ever happen but I can always dream! Finding a few million is better but hey, I just got to get by my car insurance payment for now. I made all the phone calls and email that I had to do, I didn't mail out the food stamps thing I completely forgot I am going to do that as soon as I get home. I have the envelope and stamp ready. oh and I just got my 5$ back from the thieves at bank of America! I swear, when it was just me I was great at taking care of whatever paperwork, gettn whatever things under control but doing things for 3 people its not easy. and Hell some of you have like 5 kids.. I think I would shoot myself. So I am doing well with what I got to do, Ill get there. my main concern is getting my daughter's blanket done by her bday! Oh I so hope I can I think I have to call in the troops(aka Mommy dearest)... well I am off! To do work at work

PS So I dont know why but I keep on gettn hit on by the owner of the bagel shop. Never met the guy but he is always hitting on me over the phone, kind of creepy, I mean he is nice about it but still kind of creepy

pss: ok so my boss just got back from the bagel shop, the owner sent over a half dozen mini bagels for "my daughter" I guess my boss told him that I got a hubby and child... Phew! well I got a half dozen bagels, yummy! they smell good too... but EVEN MORE CREEPY!!!!