Monday, September 28, 2009

So I think I got it

I think I know why I have had such a set back. I went fo my massage which was supposed to be my reward for getting to 145. Which I did, but I wanted to maintain for a few days before I crossed it off my goals. So I went for the massage and the massage therapist, who is my mom's yoga instructer was so mean to me. I lost 50lbs! She made it seem like I failed at what I did and that since I didn't go to her for yoga every week that I was not doing a good job at all. I mean the massage was nice, but I am very soar and in alot of pain from it still. I mean I have been working my butt off for the past few months to get where I am! I am proud of myself and I shouldn't have a naysayer tell me that I am not sucessful at what I have accomplished I am succesful!

I'm thinking of it now. I have no idea why it made me feel like such crap or why it even mattered seing how at the bday party I was at sat night EVERYONE was telling me that I looked fantastic and that they wanted to know what diet I was on. I should be super proud that I fit into all of my cloths and that I look great! I am less than I was before I got preggo. I hadn't seen 145 since 06. I think thats an accomplishment! I have to focus on the fact that I have done GREAT! Me I did great. I am going to reach my goal and I am proud of myself and I will not let any negitive thoughts get in my way.

I have 10lbs to go! Thats it 10, I can do this. When someone tells me I can't I tell them I will. When someone says its nothing I say its everything. I can do better I can accomplish more. I don't fit into the mold of other people I make my own stamp. I create and I accomplish. Well I feel much better right now. I do think though that I need some Ice cream. I have half of the ice cream left from the other night. Its about a scoop of ice cream. I know so far I have had 460 cal and dinner should be about 400 cal also. I am going to enjoy the rest of my ice cream now and that will be it. I will not have any more binges after this. I have a bday party in 2 weeks and I will only have 2 cupcakes and a lil piece of cake next week on my daughters actual bday I will work my cal around those. I have alot that I can have but I have to limit myself I also have to do more working out!

I can do so much more than I have been doing and I plan to do more. I know I am still breastfeeding and have that on my side but I can't just sit around and wait for it to work... it didn't work for me till I started eating less than 1500 cal a day. Thats my max in 1 day. I can do this and I really do plan on making more of an effort in my work outs! I can get to 135 by the end of this challenge. my way! I want to work out, I want to build muscle and slim down I want to be able to fit into all of my cloths. I want to be where I find myself to be perfect. I feel that where I am heading is in the right direction. I have lost alot of my curves but that is cause I have lost my muscles. I will build up what muscles I have left and stay slender.

Thank you ladies for letting me know that Im not the only one who falls of track. I can get back on my feet and carry on with this challenge. I can continue right where I left off too! I was doing a great job and can continue doing just as well! I don't need to say I had a setback I need to say that I enjoyed myself and I had a diet vaca, now its back to the grind. I can just hop back on track! my goal for tuesday(tomorrow is 146.) my goal for next week will be 144! I can do this! I know I can, I can make the difference of 2lbs in a week from where I have come. I want to be able to cross of 145 by October 5th! Thats my goal thats where I will be! I did not account for set backs and I will not account for them because I will not accept them! I am better than them! I am able to over come them. I will not fall of track I will keep on going!


too bad on my ice cream my lil bugga ate it! or at least some of it

I dont know it you can see it but she has chocolate all over he mouth! :( oh well!


  1. Aww she is a cutey! ♥

    50 lbs gone kicks BUTT!! You are my hero now.

    Thanks for the motivation boost.

    P.S. Don't listen to the yogi's they're crazy, lol! ;)

  2. Fifty pounds is so amazing!You will be able to get rid of the next ten pounds before you know it!

  3. Don't worry about what others think about you and your weight reduction. This is your desire and life. You don't have to explain yourself and actions. Continue on your road trip and leave the others in your dust. If you want to get those last 10 pounds off try doing lunges and squats. You will start seeing the weight coming off in two weeks. You should do them everyday. Also, for about a month set some food boundaries which are different from eating in moderaton. Setting food boundaries mean you will draw the line and not cross it. That might mean taking sweets off your list for a month. Believe me it will work. Continue on and be very strong! Good job.

  4. You are doing wonderful. Let me tell you something ~ I too have been dealing with negative comments not only from myself, but eventually myself. It's an endless cyle that i am working on, and truly one of my biggest struggles now. I am very proud of you for all you have accomplished, and your goals at hand. YOU CAN do this! NEVER let anyone tell you differently.

  5. aCK! I meant to say the negativ comments aren't only coming from others, but myself as well. *Slap on the head for too much caffeene!*

  6. Show those 10 lbs whose boss! You can do it!

  7. You go girl!!

    Pooh on naysayers. Only you know what you are truly capabale of doing...and you can even surpise yourself sometimes.

    You can lose those last 10 lbs.
    You will lose them.

    Best wishes,

  8. Don't even let them get to you girl! You CAN do this. Do you know how much will power and sacrifice you had to do to lose 50 lbs!?!?! Don't let anyone take that away from you. That is an AWESOME accomplishment. I KNOW you can get to 135 by the end of this challenge. We still have TONS of weeks left. You CAN DO IT!!

  9. Your small gain isn't a big deal this weigh-in. Just remember if you can accomplish something as big as losing 50 lbs you can do ANYTHING! :D Looking forward to seeing you hit your end of year goal.

  10. You can totally do 10 pounds. You've come so far already!

    Don't worry about tiny gain this week, and don't let the yoga teacher get you down. You're a champion: you've got this, Chupsie.



Measurments- sept 1, 2009

L arm: 12.5
R arm: 12.5
L thigh: 26
R thigh: 25.5
L calf: 15
R calf: 14.5
Bust: 34.5
Waist: 37
Thighs: 40.5