I'm thinking of it now. I have no idea why it made me feel like such crap or why it even mattered seing how at the bday party I was at sat night EVERYONE was telling me that I looked fantastic and that they wanted to know what diet I was on. I should be super proud that I fit into all of my cloths and that I look great! I am less than I was before I got preggo. I hadn't seen 145 since 06. I think thats an accomplishment! I have to focus on the fact that I have done GREAT! Me I did great. I am going to reach my goal and I am proud of myself and I will not let any negitive thoughts get in my way.
I have 10lbs to go! Thats it 10, I can do this. When someone tells me I can't I tell them I will. When someone says its nothing I say its everything. I can do better I can accomplish more. I don't fit into the mold of other people I make my own stamp. I create and I accomplish. Well I feel much better right now. I do think though that I need some Ice cream. I have half of the ice cream left from the other night. Its about a scoop of ice cream. I know so far I have had 460 cal and dinner should be about 400 cal also. I am going to enjoy the rest of my ice cream now and that will be it. I will not have any more binges after this. I have a bday party in 2 weeks and I will only have 2 cupcakes and a lil piece of cake next week on my daughters actual bday I will work my cal around those. I have alot that I can have but I have to limit myself I also have to do more working out!
I can do so much more than I have been doing and I plan to do more. I know I am still breastfeeding and have that on my side but I can't just sit around and wait for it to work... it didn't work for me till I started eating less than 1500 cal a day. Thats my max in 1 day. I can do this and I really do plan on making more of an effort in my work outs! I can get to 135 by the end of this challenge. my way! I want to work out, I want to build muscle and slim down I want to be able to fit into all of my cloths. I want to be where I find myself to be perfect. I feel that where I am heading is in the right direction. I have lost alot of my curves but that is cause I have lost my muscles. I will build up what muscles I have left and stay slender.
Thank you ladies for letting me know that Im not the only one who falls of track. I can get back on my feet and carry on with this challenge. I can continue right where I left off too! I was doing a great job and can continue doing just as well! I don't need to say I had a setback I need to say that I enjoyed myself and I had a diet vaca, now its back to the grind. I can just hop back on track! my goal for tuesday(tomorrow is 146.) my goal for next week will be 144! I can do this! I know I can, I can make the difference of 2lbs in a week from where I have come. I want to be able to cross of 145 by October 5th! Thats my goal thats where I will be! I did not account for set backs and I will not account for them because I will not accept them! I am better than them! I am able to over come them. I will not fall of track I will keep on going!
I dont know it you can see it but she has chocolate all over he mouth! :( oh well!