So today is weight I am 146! I am happy with the number but I am not happy with myself. I feel I am in a personal battle at the moment. I feel a lack of will for anything right now. I know its due to the lack of exercise but it is also due to the realization that soo much in my life has changed..
this time last year I was scratching my skin off with the PUPPPS rash. Well I still pick at my scars but I was preggo and felt like I was gonna pop at any second. at this point I already went to the hospital once with the idea that I was gonna give birth. Now in 2 weeks my daughter will be 1 years old... 1!!!! holy cow! I think my struggle consists of the fact that I have not gotten this whole thing together yet. Than again does any mother ever get it all together? hell from seeing and reading other blogs talking to other mothers and what not I feel like I can't get on track ever! I fall apart on the weekends, I should be able to pick up and keep going!
I cook I clean I play, I do everything that I can but more than half the stuff I have to do does NOT GET DONE! I don't get it!
I have a dozen phone calls (important) phone calls to make, I have things that have to get done. I have priorities in my life that are not being focused on. This GAG challenge was supposed to be more than just a weight loss challenge! it was a chance to focus on all aspects of my life. I plan on making things right!
at the moment, money might stress me but come Oct, with my hubby being paid things will start to get easier! I am hoping still to be able to move. Now our finances are tight but still in order on the other hand the house that we live in is getting closer to being gone. my in laws have not paid any of there bills, none there are constant collection calls coming in and its daunting to know that we might be out on our asses... but, I am hopeful that we shall prevail! I am concerned on another front:
this is my list of things I want to have finished by the end of the week
-daughter's blanket
-food stamp application (completed just has to be mailed in)
-hubby medicaid application- call case worker
-call lawyer re accident- need email
-email kim thank you- I keep leaving email at home.
-find 1400! yea I wish
-put loans into forbearance
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Good luck doing all the things you need to be done. You're in a tough place right now, but you will get through it. Just keep your head in the game and keep knocking items off that to do list. I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteYou are almost to your October weight goal! That is awesome.
ReplyDeleteThings get overwhelming sometimes. Just take it one item at a time and keep your head above water. Good luck this week! ♥
It sounds like you have a lot going on. I'd just encourage you to take it easy. Take care.
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